Its on new shit back in the weblog

its all good, but it might not be,

got me between a rock and some soft,

niggaz wanna stay in the hood,

like the block is a loft,

I'm loss the object is to get out,

The projects seem to be yall permient project

like a scientest with a grant,

grinding every night just to come out wiht a GRANT,

that ain't ain't no guarntee that you can serve them fiends

those erbs and things, these earthlings, are purchasing

with they worth and dreams,

the cost of it all is crushAING

the drug is like church,

so we got folks ushering (yeahhhh)

cause back in the days parents wasn't pushining,

and gats always sprays thier surroundings wasn't plush for them

we gonna shed the light out on this one. I mean you can't blame someone and not look in the mirror home skillet, see what you did muthafucker you ain't innoncent.......

Now we gotta go wayyyyyyyyyy back how far back wayyyyyyyyyyyyy back.....

Sophomorora, Things looking up, Got my own room, got some things cooking up, now when I find a ho we can get up, got a spot, no worrying about the roomate in doing the cock block, my nigga acorss the hall, got him a girl can't really ball, how we use to go the club get drunk hit the wall, til we get right with about 2 more Coranas have a girl bend over showing them draws but oh well.. I was thinking about settling down, let me see who I cna get with now. Went down stairs to visit V, see what her suitmates looking like this year, last year meet Nell and Lizzy, this year see the room with Kelly and Becky, think too much about it at first they look kinda sleepy. One had an ass and phat thighs but from the first look I figure she ain't like black guys but you know I was bored and being nosy, Look up on her wall sawwwww a whole bunch of niggaz is hoodies, looking like they only shopping at Fines, and chopping some dimes. Looking at her friends they look ghetto fab, now my decision I made right there was check mate, but me being me got side track by this other girl in suite wasn't no where pretty as her but she was too sweet and I wanna to corruput, and thinking get my dick sucked. I had a girl in around the hall I was already trying to cut, BUT they fell through one day had much liquor thorugh my pores it came through. She was spending the night every night basically in her underwear basically seeing the cooch, seeing teh check but cash it for the loot, SHOOT, finally drunk and cuss her out, told her stop being a tease stuck her outside, shit and about the same since then but the story about her we still cool, we just friends, Now things get intersting, back to Beck finally start noticing her again, came in mentioning her ass, Gave me her IM name so we can talk and share past, Wanted her but didn't know how to really go about it, finally stop being a bitch about it, invited her for a moive, codeword invited to share some booty, and

I really thought I was going hit, we kiss and had the shirt off, figuring going to pants, look at her "NOt a chance". Now I'm left in the night with my dick in my hand, Thinking to myself liek what went wrong, but a couple nights later it got on, but I couldn't get right, what the hell, this never happens, thanking got damn "jamal" you slacking, for once Ego deflated, wondering how you going take this, ghetto chick stab a nigga for this, but she was cool, stayed in bed and held me, I never felt somthing so healthy for the soul well you know it finally come together, 2 become one, yadda yadda , sappy stuff, She basically in the room every night we getting close, its getting more than just I like you, finally decide to give this shit a title, gf/bf see this can cause a  whril wind, cause fall break coming up, and in my mind I"m still a slut, jsut cause she around me I ain't really been test-ed but I know when I go home its own,  got a girl who giving brains and Beck don't do that "ewwwwww" so what's a playa to do. stay faithful, HA muthafucker, I can pluck this chicken and she'll never know, and she didn't.

Got back to school and got rewarded, she was soooooo happy I keep my dick in my boxers, Thank me in the shower, lord did she ever thank me in the shower,  some weeks later arguments start to arise and I'm tired of jsut looking at her face what it is, so I admit that this girl name nikki suck my dick and rode that shit in the back of the buick , that about explains her but some way some how I got her back, DAMN I'm good, no really GOT DAMN I'm good let me stop, NOw DAMN GREAT, Its just SCOTT, J. in front stay in the front of the line. Now we happy again the chirsitmas break comes and we decide to cool off for a bit. Now jsut by chance I was looking for it .  trough BEcca I meet this girl who had problems, wanna someone to release her stress, didn't think it would come down to her going down, she was freak in diguise, father of a deacon, had alot of silbings and sometimes got lost in the shuffle, said she would sick my duck just if I had hug her. now I really shouldn't of took advantage. But damn it if things didn't fall right in inot place fam went to a hockey game about 45 minutes away got the house alone, now she givng me dome, then I"m sending her on. lied to BEcky again but couldn't keep that up for long about 2 hours she alredy figure out before she even asked what I had jsut did, guess it is what it is but she didn't seem to mad at that one and its this the end of that year next year begin next check me later for the next one.

we gonna black out on this one baby hollar at me:

Times go by like whoosh, sure you thought you could be something ture, naw dog, What is all for, lies and deciet, tell you its going all fall, Why do I keep being a dog for? cause you can't trust a broad for, far as you can throw em, make me wanna some throw some agianst the wall awwww, naww I ani't Iking it. Just writing it down, the anger brews exciment can skip the vitamins, In another fight again, saying she didn't mean to do it just wanted the night to end, He was spilling his soul,  telling how he thinks his life will end, how shit getting rough he can't find a friend, and she was a shoulder to a lean on, guess all the emotions spilling she forgot, tell him she already had someone who love her through the  bumpy roads and rocks, arguments with roomates, waffle houses and baby drop, baby ain't my baby  no mo, I thank she got, tired of this lazy mc I guess I can not knock, this game that always come to take me it has me shock, and all the girls I ignore who wanted to suck *stop* let me not get to vuglar with it, anger have you release things you rahter not exhibit, admittness, I guess for once I got  played, told me we can be one on one believe her got sprayed, maced like mason betha what make you think girls don't cheat, felt like she seeked out a way to hurt me, I can't speak, thought things was going all well, but ah well of course it couldn't be, life just continuing going  well for me. Tight jeep but go put some spinners on it, go get you any corner hustlar and tell em get in and you can relive the moment, the decisions of splitting, told me you was bad at math, but it seems  you 2 good at division, think I was giving all my efforts, and ain't get half  back, situation just have to laugh at, mask that pain up, laid up, eyes shut to what was going on, I was worryin when she would get home, never knowing the evil thing that was unfolding while I'm fighting sleep, she out on the creep, just a kiss wasn't shit, I don't want a hear peep, "we didn't have sex" sheesesh, what you want a cookie, why you wanna put me in a postion to hate, only have loved for you, on this thin line I skate, the ice is getting weaker, with every moment you speak of how it went down, I just couldn't concieve of, you doing this to me, Guess its stupid of me to think I could keep her away from the one she will always care for and love most before anyone else.......................................

HER GOT DAMN SELF

and I"m out....

Just chilling, worried, need a hug, Got alot of problems today. I was sick last night I was at work feeling bad as hell. I was about to pass out in that place I couldn't make it. So I came home and went to sleep.

Yesterday was going okay to. I went to cracker barrel with Ricky, Rayyanna and Jordan. It was fun chilling with them. WE was wilding out waiting for the table and at the table. Rick and me said we'll start hanging out once he gets off PTI (lol). Rayyanna said he couldn't be we don't believe her. She told me she quit Subway something about Ricky got into with her manger or something crazy. Ricky was telling me how he work at Bi-lo right near my house and I need to come by and he''ll hook me up with free liquor. I would just have to put a case in his car 2. So I'm probably going to go do that one weekend.  I need to start hanging out with Jig cause shit is getting too boring. I can't take it anymore. Tory told me it as a party in Greenwood last week but his phone wasn't working and he was trying to invite me. I was like damn nigga but he was in florence this weekend so we couldn't get up. This weekend I"m going to have to do something, something got to pop off. I might go to ATL and wild out with Brown. They got a free studio and I'm going to drunk and high and go in the booth and get shit off my chest.

When I got home from CRacker barrles what I always knew was confrimed and I was sorta mad but even tho I couldn't be I was still angry. It just made me think like everytime I mess up or we have an argument you'll have someone to run to and shit I'll pop off. I was talking to my friend the other day and she was like "you fuck up with Mioshi why you diss her like that" Now I thought about I don't even remeber while I dissed her I guess we just didn't click but I guess she is mad at me but I dont' care I"m not trying to mess with her anyway. It had me thinking how I just cut everyone off while trying to get her back (I mean my decision but still) I have no friends or folk I talk to. I was thinking I still don't know what goes down in Charleston or in SUmter. She tells me about all these guys that won't to sleep wiht her and touch her ass and shit and that just makes me more . I love her and I know she loves me but its hard. I mean what if something happen I would never know. She goes out every weekend and I'm always stuck in the house I mean its my fault but if I have to start going out solo I might just do that like fuck it. I'm going 2 to have a find a riding partner.

well thats the end.